i always hate being trapped in the middle of this tension fight at home. especially when that includes mom and dad. that’s why i really want to move out as soon as possible from the house, so i could avoid this shit. It’s good if i had gotten a college that wasn’t nearby, but unfortunately, it is, soo i get stucked here. When i was little, all i could do was just crying, hoping they’re not gonna get a divorce. well you see, their marriage is kinda hot and col, both side really have some issues. i guess. well, i’ve been prepared for the worst for a long time,. but,it hasn;t happened yet. and it’s been upside down and emotional roller coaster for me, and to be honest, even thought i have prepared myself for it, and now i’m older, i’m still scared. the fear of the unknown is haunting me.i try to just ignore it sometimes, when things get ugly, hiding in my room, or in the focus of watching movies hoping the storm to pass asap. i just can’t wait to graduate, and move out, i can’t stand being in this stupid fight for years, this isn’t healthy you know, for anyone to see this extreme unstability at your house, i think there are a lot of people who had worse much worse than me, so who am i to complain rite? that’s life, i could post some of my best moments pictures, and the next i could post some shitty things like this. completely roller coaster. isn’t it?